The problem being an atheist you cannot blame a deity for things...

Even though I handed in my thesis and started looking for a job, does not mean I believe anything will change, it just will be better paid which makes it easier to have short term fun. On the long run, it still does not make sense.

Having to learn for exams does not really put me into the best of moods. I have to fill my brain with stuff completely unrelated with my thesis, which I will immedeately forget after the exam. So completely useless... As you cannot fail the exam, I should have the cojones to just go there, tell the profs how useless it all is and that I preferr to spend my time drunk somewhere warm. But as usual, I don't have the cojones to do it and will play safe. And be frustrated.

This is post number 666 btw...

Circles

A possible solution to my current bad mood would be finishing my thesis and getting a girlfriend. Which won't happen soon because of my bad mood not providing sufficient motivation do finish the first and get anywhere close to the second. Catch 22...

Thesis

It seems that everything I was directly involved failed. While writing up it seems that all data that I took was useless, all tests I conducted showed that the detector is not understood and that the tests were useless. At least it will improve my english when I try to make it sound that everthing was great.

Else: this weekend my car wouldn't start (empty battery), my mobile broke (wrong pin entered three times while it was supposed to sit in my pocket being switched off), I met a lot of advanced-level-geeks and had a lot of good wheat beer. The beer was definitely the high point the last couple of days...

Being a mediocre physicist sucks. You're nerdy enough that girls won't talk to you but still not nerdy enough to not bother...

Usefull presents.

Today, when I went to lunch at the university canteen, a good looking girl gave me a condom.

Unfortunately she didn't give me her phone number. So now I have to find another use for it. Maybe I'll build an underwater microphone. Always handy, those underwater mics.

Another day...

Things positive today:

• sent the abstract for a conference to the referees one day before the deadline.
  

Things negative today:

• pissed off a nice girl I would like to meet more often.
  
• bored a lot of students to death.
  
• showed my incompetence at a meeting.
  
• didn't write anything for my thesis.
  
• lost badly at cards.
  
• wrote an email to above mentioned girl which will turn out a completely bad idea and show that I am a complete idiot.
  
• didn't even get drunk.
  

Yeeha for successful living.

168 hours of a Rotating Fork

168 hours of a Rotating Fork
Originally uploaded by perreira.

A post for Phil: yes, the tapes are still there, except tape number 3. Somebody might have taken this home. It's a nice movie if you cannot sleep.

Dear unknown Physicist...

... staying in the ground floor of my hostel: If you watch porn movies on your laptop, please close your window. It's not enough to close the curtain, you can still hear the sound. And yes, also ordinary people with a healthy sex live watch porn movies occasionally, not everybody who watches porn movies on a laptop is a socially disturbed jerk. But taking into account at where I am staying right now, this second type is much more probable...

I want to go back to real world.

On shift

So, I am on shift again. This time even shift leader, responsible for the experiment, taking care that everybody gets good data to analyse, leading spin physics to better understanding of the proton, advancing human knowledge, working for a better humanity...

Basically I am sitting around, until something beeps. Most of the times the beeping goes away if you ignore it for a while. If it doesn't go away, I'll call somebody. And I have to do some paperwork, filling out forms with data which is also automatically written to disk, just to keep me busy and make me look at screens. (This is the difference to Target Shift, where you just sit around, without any paperwork)

And you can't really work here, as there is a constant hissing of pumps, computers and air condition, the air is dryed, the light is bad and you sit seven floors underground...